I got 2 trojans. Yippee! I thought I got rid of them, then I tried installing something...then...I would boot, and it'd just show my wallpaper and nothing else. I couldn't do anything. I had to re-install Windows.

SO NEW RULES. I will not download anything from a site I have not heard of. I will see what other people say, or try to find an alt link from a site I know. I have also downloaded 2 anti virus things now, got rid of Spybot (since it never did anything) and will beat down anything that tries to harm my computer.

I'm having to re-download AO, it's taking forever. Such a huge game Then I'll have to re-get all my programs and such. I've been spending all day doing this. Well, while it's been installing and updating, I've been playing Sly Cooper. Good game yo. Although, Murray seems like a useless character. He's only said like 1 sentence to me.


In other news, I'm trying very hard to not get myself worked up. I keep...having dreams about school. I can't get it off my mind. The stress never completely left. Afterall, we have...maybe a month left? It sucks, I should get a job. But I'm scared. The huge places frighten me and I feel like a loser not knowing what the hell is going on. On the other side, I would have to get my social security number from my mom...I really don't want to be hounded. I hate being yelled at. I'm so tired of it.

It just arrrghhh. I'll try to finish the stupid Driving thing tomorrow. I only have 9 more to go, and I did 10 on one day, so....mayyybbeee.

Long journal is long. But I keep telling myself, that matter what I do it'll be fine. We're all newbies at one point. We all make un-wise choices. But nothing super bad will happen. I mean, I have a plan, and something will come out it, even if it's for a tiny little thing. Then I get mad at myself and turn emo.

Why do I get mad at myself? Because I believe I'll fail. I'm impatient and get stressed easily. But still...arghhhh. I feel like my mind is split. One part is what I want to do, the other is just a no machine. Then other people side with the no side, then I start to feel bad. I hate thinking this! I know my future won't be so bad but I can't seem to totally convince myself!

55M left on AO.

tl;dr: I'm bored.